Thursday, June 25, 2009

And I guess I'm spent!

Maybe the time is here.
The time I realized I'm not to be a government teacher.
The time I feel that I'm more suited to something else.
The more I look into it, the more I feel how fast I'm going to stagnate, just like those teacher we were warned not to be.

I feel like quitting now.
I am.
Maybe it's the weird system.
Maybe it's me.
Maybe it's how the people interpret it.
Maybe it's me.
Maybe it's just Malaysians, feeling good about a one time thingy.
Maybe it's just me.

People might wonder why does some people who spent years to study other stuff but in the end wanting to be a teacher. But me, I spent more than 5 years studying to be a teacher, not wanting to be one.

Don't get me wrong, I love teaching. But I hate being a 'SERVANT'. I hate being forced to do anything I don't feel like doing. Yeah I sound pampered. But that's me. Idk bout how ppl see me, as long as I have a happy life.

During my undergrad years, I was taught to change the system, bring the revolution to the system. Seems like the system sense this movement and decided to crush the seed before it manages to sprout a leaf.

Yeah, people might say this is a survival phase, whether I'm to survive it or not. I guess I will not survive. I'm choosing not to. I feel there's a calling for me. A greater calling for me out there.

1 comment:

Jessica said...

Is it possible for u to stop the contract? Hmm, or maybe u can wait until the contract finish, quit the job, and then do something that u really really like. It is hard at your place to ignore the system and the people that u dislike, but, at least u can ask for a transfer to another place?

Take care..