Monday, May 25, 2009

I am a teacher...

Yet the title is an irony..

A teacher is a human.

Teacher comes from the word teach. The person who teach is a teacher.

I chose to be a teacher coz I thought ( 6 years ago or so) it'd be an easy going life, and plenty of time for me to write. I chose to be a teacher coz i like kids.

But, I didn't chose to be a teacher to be a pawn. To be a machine. If I wanna be a pawn, I'll work on a chessboard. If I wanna be a machine, there's more than enough in factories everywhere...

When the letter came and I was appointed assistant coach for under 12 volleyball team, I looked at the date. I immediately was taken aback. The date states that right after the midyear exam I'm to coach the team. And my boss said, go but make sure you prepare the hols homework for kids, you fin marking and do the post mortem and item analysis. I was like, HELL!! (said to myself tho). Ppl kept on saying that, u're lucky, usualy its hard to be in the JPN when even if you have worked 2 years... And I got it after 5 months of being an unconfirmed teacher.... But, because of some state's glory, some higher ups' attitude, some bureaucracies, I have to neglect my kids, my 120 kids who needs learning, attention and love. I have divert my attentions to 12 kids. Only. I have to leave my work (yet I still have to do it). I have to damage my newly recovered body after a month long of being unwell.

Funny thing is, on the first day, the vice director was having lunch with us ( due to some ass kissing of some people) and I tried to have a conversation with that guy, as he asked me stuff, but I was silenced by some ass kissing people.... It would be rude, they say. Alrite, when people ask you question, you answer rite? It's not rude rite?

WTF is wrong with the education system????!!!!!!!!!!!

Shit!



The picture above is the image of my left hand, on Saturday... On Friday afternoon, while coaching, I accidentally brushed my hands against a tree, without knowing it's full of thorns....

I got 4 thorns in my flesh, which 1 I managed to pull out. But the other three, I couldn't. And I thought it would come out on its own... But, I was wrong, it got worse, it deepens on their own. My hand was swelling, and itchy. On Saturday I went to the clinic (again, didn't have time for queuing at the government hospital) to take it out. With little money, I said to the doc, I just have this amount of money, could you make it less than the normal price? LOL I was actually bargaining with a doctor for a treatment fee...

And the nice lady doc asked for a needle, a gauze, a tissue paper and a cotton ball. She practically scratch my flesh out in three places, with blood oozing, and using some sort of tweezers to take out the thorns.... Without giving me any sedative... The 30 minutes operation was hell!!!! And turns out to be on of the thorn punctured my blood vessels... But in the end, the 3 5mm long thorns were out and I'm safe...

Well, no sedative for a bargain price operation!

Anyway, hope tomorrow is a better day....

p/s: do meh bout any mistakes in the post... Damn tired...

5 comments:

Pame 26 said...

Ouch babe.Get well soon (again.)

Musica said...

I can feel the stress on the word 'again'....

Pame 26 said...

hahaha.U got me right there.

Act,I almost 'like' your status kt Fb,tp takperla.I keep it to myself.I rarely read obscene status at Fb. Diri sendiri punya tak termasukla,like 'u could get a tip if u strip'.haha.

U MADE MY DAY.Holidays getting nearer kn.Happy holidays in adv.

ah^kam_koko' said...

WTF man...

Let's get together & feel alright this weekend!

Musica said...

Yeah!! Hahaha, just that I wish I dun have to go back to JB straight after the convo...