If this won't happen, that would have the chance to be.
If that is against other people's will, this would have happened.
If I keep on wondering about 'If', nothing would happen.
Finally, I managed to confront it. To confront her. It would be a sad ending of a story of my life, which I reluctantly end. I just don't want it to happen. I was afraid of it happening. But it happened. It was partly my fault as well as circumstances. Yeah, I might be happy but am I happy wholeheartedly? Even if I try to do something about it, nothing would I gain from it. All she wants was me to be happy, she said. Which I know that is not what she wants. And it breaks my heart knowing that. Tears won't do any good.
Am in mixed mode.
I just can't lose the essence of the story I once told to myself. The romance of what would be too good to be true.
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
So Beautiful
So Beautiful
sung by Pete Murray
Found myself just the other day
In the backyard of a friends place
Thinking about you
Thinking of the crowd you're in,
What you're up to, where you've been,
Just thinking...
You know the clothes that you wear,
And the colour in your hair,
Shouldn't change you,
Now you tell me why is it so,
You're bigger than Mighty Joe
At least you think so
Got my fingers burn,
Now when I think of touching your hair
You have changed so much that I don't know,
If I can call you, and tell you I care
And I would love to bring you down,
Plant your feet back on the ground
Threw my smoke down on the ground
Turned my head and I heardthe sound,
That reminded me
Of the days so young and sweet,
Always so much fun to me
At least I thought so
Now you think you're so damn fine,
You could rule the world,
No not mine,
I don't think so
Got my fingers burn,
Now when I think of touching your hair,
You have changed so much, that I don't know,
If I can call you and tell you I care
You know the scene that you're in,
And the people that you've been with,
Just get to me
But you think I'm not as cool
As you are so beautiful,
Who you foolin?
Well I'm here to tell you babe,
The game you're in, is just a game
So damn pretentious
Got my fingers burn,
Now when I think of touching your hair,
You have changed so much that I don't know,
If I can call you, and tell you I care
And I would love to bring you down,
Plant your feet back on the ground
You think you're so beautiful....
So beautiful
Okay, this is one of my favorite songs when I was in Brisbane. Random.
Ja~
sung by Pete Murray
Found myself just the other day
In the backyard of a friends place
Thinking about you
Thinking of the crowd you're in,
What you're up to, where you've been,
Just thinking...
You know the clothes that you wear,
And the colour in your hair,
Shouldn't change you,
Now you tell me why is it so,
You're bigger than Mighty Joe
At least you think so
Got my fingers burn,
Now when I think of touching your hair
You have changed so much that I don't know,
If I can call you, and tell you I care
And I would love to bring you down,
Plant your feet back on the ground
Threw my smoke down on the ground
Turned my head and I heardthe sound,
That reminded me
Of the days so young and sweet,
Always so much fun to me
At least I thought so
Now you think you're so damn fine,
You could rule the world,
No not mine,
I don't think so
Got my fingers burn,
Now when I think of touching your hair,
You have changed so much, that I don't know,
If I can call you and tell you I care
You know the scene that you're in,
And the people that you've been with,
Just get to me
But you think I'm not as cool
As you are so beautiful,
Who you foolin?
Well I'm here to tell you babe,
The game you're in, is just a game
So damn pretentious
Got my fingers burn,
Now when I think of touching your hair,
You have changed so much that I don't know,
If I can call you, and tell you I care
And I would love to bring you down,
Plant your feet back on the ground
You think you're so beautiful....
So beautiful
Okay, this is one of my favorite songs when I was in Brisbane. Random.
Ja~
Saturday, December 27, 2008
fever
Fever is somewhat a hassle when it's holiday....
I wanna go somewhere yet feverish.
I wanna do something yet feverish.
I wanna eat something, yet feverish.
If it's just one or two days it's okay. But it's the fourth day now.....
I wanna go somewhere yet feverish.
I wanna do something yet feverish.
I wanna eat something, yet feverish.
If it's just one or two days it's okay. But it's the fourth day now.....
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Nas's Engagement
On the 13th of December 2008, I was engaged to Yana. It was kinda awesome as I think I dunno what to think. Can't believe I'm engaged. Muhahahaahaha!
Neway, here's the pic.
Thanks for all who came and thank you for all your kind wishes.^_^
Neway, here's the pic.
Thanks for all who came and thank you for all your kind wishes.^_^
Sunday, December 14, 2008
YEAP!
It's funny when I just talked to Shim on YM. He uses Yeap instead of Yup.
Yeap sounds more like Y-I-A-P
Yup sounds more like Y-A-P
hahaha....
Random.
Yup, I'm engaged. But am tired and not having the right photo editing software due to my recent laptop reformation, it's gonna take time. Maybe tuesday if it's possible.
Well, Eton is gonna stay in Seremban for a while, until Jarod can settle things up. So Koko, I'm gonna look after Shadow for a while. Shoel misses her. ^_^ She'll be a free range cat. Hahaha. Daging liat nanti tau. Sedap!!!
Ah well, tats it fer tonite.
Ja~
Yeap sounds more like Y-I-A-P
Yup sounds more like Y-A-P
hahaha....
Random.
Yup, I'm engaged. But am tired and not having the right photo editing software due to my recent laptop reformation, it's gonna take time. Maybe tuesday if it's possible.
Well, Eton is gonna stay in Seremban for a while, until Jarod can settle things up. So Koko, I'm gonna look after Shadow for a while. Shoel misses her. ^_^ She'll be a free range cat. Hahaha. Daging liat nanti tau. Sedap!!!
Ah well, tats it fer tonite.
Ja~
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Friday, December 12, 2008
Life is..
1) A bitch.
Why does it has to be like this?
What did I do to deserve this?
What happened to everything?
Why does it happening right now?
Right now?
Am I destined to face it like this?
Is it written for me to walk this road?
Damn.
2) Full of bitches.
Why does that bitch didn't do it when the time is right?
Why does she has to mess things up?
Why did they went on and on to make me suffer?
Do they grin and smile and laugh and talk about it over coffee or dinner?
Do they dream about it at night while smiling in sleep?
Do they cum when they do that?
Do they get the sense of euphoria when people like me suffer?
3) Incomprehensible
There's just lots of things that confuse me.
There's just lots of things that I could not understand. Don't tell me what to do.
Damn.
Damn those bitches.
Why does it has to be like this?
What did I do to deserve this?
What happened to everything?
Why does it happening right now?
Right now?
Am I destined to face it like this?
Is it written for me to walk this road?
Damn.
2) Full of bitches.
Why does that bitch didn't do it when the time is right?
Why does she has to mess things up?
Why did they went on and on to make me suffer?
Do they grin and smile and laugh and talk about it over coffee or dinner?
Do they dream about it at night while smiling in sleep?
Do they cum when they do that?
Do they get the sense of euphoria when people like me suffer?
3) Incomprehensible
There's just lots of things that confuse me.
There's just lots of things that I could not understand. Don't tell me what to do.
Damn.
Damn those bitches.
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Thursday, December 11, 2008
Nas's Cave.
I just redid my room's arrangements last few days just to accommodate my new roommate, Shoel. The way it is now gives us more space to play, sleep, roll around and yeah, easier for Shoel to exit the window and play around on the roof.
So, welcome to my room.
As you can see here, this is what you could see right after you stepped into the door. My working table on your left. Next to it is my bed, the place where I spend most of my time at home.
At the end of my bed is the bookshelves that I arranged so that it won't take much space and at the same time look neat. I got this idea from Mien's room in IPBA. Next to it is Shoel's sandbox. I put it there coz of the window, where the sun could heat it up so that there won't be any bad odor (GOD BLESS CAT'S LITTERS' INVENTORS).
Okay, next is my cupboard. This is where I put my clothes that I rarely use. HAHA. And the window next to it, as you can see, the security grill there can be opened. And Shoel took full advantage of it, to get on the roof and play around there.
And he's doing it.
And enjoying it.
Next is my bookshelf aka gundam shelf aka dvdshelf aka softtoy shelf. I put almost everytin there. It's very neat to have one in your room. Next to it is actually a big mirror for me to appreciate god's creation and next to the mirror is some of the posters that I collect during my childhood. Can anyone guess who they are?
Next is my workstation that consists of my laptop, numerous power cable extensions, chargers of all sorts, music cds and stuff that people put on their table. And the most important thing, water bottle for me when I go on GW or spend lotsa time in front of Tashiboo.
And this is where I sleep.
And here's where Shoel sleep. I just love this thing. It has lotsa uses such as to carry Shoel anywhere, to lock him, to give him a place to sleep and as a torture chamber (combined with a hairdryer), just in case he misbehave.
Anyway, that's bout it.
Oh yeah, I just noticed. Lotsa stuff that I have is in yellow. Funny thing is that I'm not a fan of that colour. Talk about irony eh?
So, welcome to my room.
As you can see here, this is what you could see right after you stepped into the door. My working table on your left. Next to it is my bed, the place where I spend most of my time at home.
At the end of my bed is the bookshelves that I arranged so that it won't take much space and at the same time look neat. I got this idea from Mien's room in IPBA. Next to it is Shoel's sandbox. I put it there coz of the window, where the sun could heat it up so that there won't be any bad odor (GOD BLESS CAT'S LITTERS' INVENTORS).
Okay, next is my cupboard. This is where I put my clothes that I rarely use. HAHA. And the window next to it, as you can see, the security grill there can be opened. And Shoel took full advantage of it, to get on the roof and play around there.
And he's doing it.
And enjoying it.
Next is my bookshelf aka gundam shelf aka dvdshelf aka softtoy shelf. I put almost everytin there. It's very neat to have one in your room. Next to it is actually a big mirror for me to appreciate god's creation and next to the mirror is some of the posters that I collect during my childhood. Can anyone guess who they are?
Next is my workstation that consists of my laptop, numerous power cable extensions, chargers of all sorts, music cds and stuff that people put on their table. And the most important thing, water bottle for me when I go on GW or spend lotsa time in front of Tashiboo.
And this is where I sleep.
And here's where Shoel sleep. I just love this thing. It has lotsa uses such as to carry Shoel anywhere, to lock him, to give him a place to sleep and as a torture chamber (combined with a hairdryer), just in case he misbehave.
Anyway, that's bout it.
Oh yeah, I just noticed. Lotsa stuff that I have is in yellow. Funny thing is that I'm not a fan of that colour. Talk about irony eh?
Early morning....
I woke up today to find that Shoel's gone!
Without washing my face or brushing my teeth, my face went to the OMG mode.
I forgot to close the windows last night before I sleep.
So, I wash my face, brush my teeth and made a quick check around the house's perimeter. N
No sign.
In my mind was that he was either squashed by a car or mangled by the neighbour's dog.
Damn.
But, suddenly I remembers that he likes higher places like the roof of the Block 4. So I went out of my window, scanned the roof area and walked around on the roof.
Lucky I did that.
I saw him cowering in fear under my mum's room's windows.
When he saw me, he quickly ran to me and followed me back to the room.
Hahaha. There, you taught yourself a lesson boy.
"Well, next time you want to play on the roof, go ahead. But come back when I call you", that's what I said to him.
IMHO, he's too pampered. I bet he will be beaten by Hilmi's Keychain if we were to put the cats on a fight. Shoel lacks this street smart stuff. And experience. Too pampered.
Well, once in a while, he should sneak out of my room and get into a fight or something.
Ah well, weird early morning.
Ja~
Without washing my face or brushing my teeth, my face went to the OMG mode.
I forgot to close the windows last night before I sleep.
So, I wash my face, brush my teeth and made a quick check around the house's perimeter. N
No sign.
In my mind was that he was either squashed by a car or mangled by the neighbour's dog.
Damn.
But, suddenly I remembers that he likes higher places like the roof of the Block 4. So I went out of my window, scanned the roof area and walked around on the roof.
Lucky I did that.
I saw him cowering in fear under my mum's room's windows.
When he saw me, he quickly ran to me and followed me back to the room.
Hahaha. There, you taught yourself a lesson boy.
"Well, next time you want to play on the roof, go ahead. But come back when I call you", that's what I said to him.
IMHO, he's too pampered. I bet he will be beaten by Hilmi's Keychain if we were to put the cats on a fight. Shoel lacks this street smart stuff. And experience. Too pampered.
Well, once in a while, he should sneak out of my room and get into a fight or something.
Ah well, weird early morning.
Ja~
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Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Shoel's Tale...
Heya!
Shoel keeps on begging me to blog bout his experience in IPBA, so, yeah.
He starts his life in IPBA somewhere late January or early February 2008. He had the shortest tail than his siblings thus the name Shoel, which stands for Short Tail. He had a mum, 2 brothers and 2 sisters. They were born somewhere in Block 3 but the mum, Pochi, moved them to level 7, Block 4. And that is the Cohort 2 boys' penthouse.
You see, they love doing what they do as babies.
But sometimes it gets too much for Pochi, so she decided that she needed to teach them a lesson or two.
I know, it's a cruel world.
But since I love Shoel soo much, I decided to cast away Pochi and the other 2 kittens, namely Stella and Junior.
So, the ones that were saved during that week's Survivor's elimination were:
Eton aka Shadow.
She's taken by Jarod. But there's something funny about her.....
Do keep your thoughts to yourself ya?
And yeah, the other one is Wunan. He's the one that jumped from the seventh floor and broke his leg. But after that incident, he was less courageous and loves to hide in..... erm, let the pic below explains it.
Weird cat.
Anyway, speaking of bad habits, Shoel have lots too!
First, it's the way he sleeps...
And it's so contagious that Eton follows after him too!
Well, after that he was pissed being copied by the copycat, he locked Eton in the cage while he slept in a basket outside of the cage, just to piss her off.
Poor Eton. But I always knew that Shoel has this gentleman flair of him. What happened was that after the egoistic actions of his, he took her for a date (on a chair though) and shared his ice cream (mine actually) with her. AWW!!!
And Shoel dreams to be a joey! He wants to be a kangaroo's baby!!!!
So, what happened was that he always looked for 'secured places' such as my shirt, my bag and Syahir's luggage. He loves it!
This kid just have lotsa imagination..... and I'm proud of it!
Well, after we finished everything in IPBA, it's time for Shoel to move to Seremban, leaving Eton and Wunan. He was sad, could not eat or drink or going to the loo, but slowly he was adapting in my house.
But little did he know about what happened in Level 7, Block 4.
I dare not tell him but he saw the picture....
I'm sorry darling. Be strong.... Don't go on like that forever yeah?
Aww come on!!! You are the one that wants me to write bout you!
*Nas bites Shoel*
Hmmph!!
Anyway, that's about it.
And Shoel sends his regards to all of you readers.
So, yeah.
Ja~
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
Busy
Well, I wanted to blog about how Shoel adapted to his new environment, my house, but I'm a bit busy with the stuff. So, yeah.
Btw, I am getting engaged this coming Saturday, so, yeah. That's why I'm busy. Plus, my laptop was attacked by worm.... >_< thus i have to reformat it and lost lotsa important documents and on the bright side, my laptop is revived again! But I do miss the Adobe Photoshop I used to have......... Where do I have to get money to buy the new one..... OMG!
mood: mixed feelings
Shoel's mood: curios, afraid and having a slight fever yet playful at night when I'm sleeping.
Till then, Ja~
p/s: Najib and Soya is getting engaged today, so, congrats to ya both!
Btw, I am getting engaged this coming Saturday, so, yeah. That's why I'm busy. Plus, my laptop was attacked by worm.... >_< thus i have to reformat it and lost lotsa important documents and on the bright side, my laptop is revived again! But I do miss the Adobe Photoshop I used to have......... Where do I have to get money to buy the new one..... OMG!
mood: mixed feelings
Shoel's mood: curios, afraid and having a slight fever yet playful at night when I'm sleeping.
Till then, Ja~
p/s: Najib and Soya is getting engaged today, so, congrats to ya both!
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Thursday, December 4, 2008
Butterflying....
If you want to be a butterfly, you need to be the caterpillar first.
If you want to be a butterfly who is short of butter, be the maggot first.
If you want to be a butterfly who is short of butter, be the maggot first.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Caterpillars and creepy crawlers...
I did say in the previous post that I'm no fan for creepy crawlers and leeches is the numero uno!
Ironically, lately I kept on using phrases that symbolises my affections towards those crawlers...... I think i need to go for a check up...
Been busy as I am required to attend a course. And it's for 3 weeks, well 1 more to go..
But, I will be happily busy this weekend as our Cohort is organising a farewell barbecue party and guess what, I'll be cooking the foods! YEAH BABY!
There'll be lotsa Kebobs, cheesy spring rolls, various dips, grilled chickens, salsa sauce, and lots more. lol
Most of it are mainly imaginary recipes I thought of one night and hopefully it'll turn out great.
Well, as long as U have great company, anything will turn out great.
Erm, this is kinda out of place announcement but I'm getting engaged on the 13th of December. So, yeah, thats bout it.
Ja~
Ironically, lately I kept on using phrases that symbolises my affections towards those crawlers...... I think i need to go for a check up...
Been busy as I am required to attend a course. And it's for 3 weeks, well 1 more to go..
But, I will be happily busy this weekend as our Cohort is organising a farewell barbecue party and guess what, I'll be cooking the foods! YEAH BABY!
There'll be lotsa Kebobs, cheesy spring rolls, various dips, grilled chickens, salsa sauce, and lots more. lol
Most of it are mainly imaginary recipes I thought of one night and hopefully it'll turn out great.
Well, as long as U have great company, anything will turn out great.
Erm, this is kinda out of place announcement but I'm getting engaged on the 13th of December. So, yeah, thats bout it.
Ja~
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Btn and Malacca
Well, as you might be informed, I was away for BTN for a week and then straight to Malacca for the boys' trip. Poor Shoel been left alone. I know he miss me lots and I miss him lots too.
Well, since I did not bring my mobile phone, I did not get much pics during BTN but trust me IT WAS A DAMN GOOD EXPERIENCE! LOL
I really respect my facilitator, my group, our teamwork, Syahir's change into a great leader, our experience and undoubtedly my phobia of leeches. HAHAHAHAHA
U might not believe it but I will freeze to death if I see any of those creepy crawler latched onto me.
Anyway, somehow it's funny when fate stepped in. Literally I was granted lotsa my wish there. And I was granted so much that I thought it would be too good to be true. But in the end I paid the price. I was speechless when the time came. And even though I need to end this years of infatuation, I just cant. Well, she's been the person I know all these years and guess I'm comfortable with it. Well, who knows. But I just need to end it. Adoi!
Anyway, after BTN the boys and me went to the long-planned Malacca trip.
Well, it might be our last trip together so what the heck. I was damn tired coz of that trip as I was drivin for the whole trip and I bet Guna was too!
We stayed in A'Famosa resort and guess wut, in the villa we stayed, there's a fish pond!
Lol
I guess it would be neat to have one in my future home for Shoel to play with. LOL
And while driving around Malacca, we saw something funny.... But I don't mean to be offensive but heck! IDK!!!
Well, it's gonna be weird parting ways with the people that I've grown close to since June 2003. And most of us will be paving a new way in life soon so I guess despite all the headaches obtained so far, I wanted to say I will miss Level 7 and it will be in my heart forever. And that includes Manchi, Pochi, Shoel, Wunan, Shadow, Junior and Stella. Well, of course lets not forget the topic of the Phantom of the Auditorium. ROFL!!!! He will always be the topic of our discussions in Mamaks or other restaurants when we meet up again someday.
Till then, Ja~
p/s: Don't you think that this entry is somehow a bit random?
Well, since I did not bring my mobile phone, I did not get much pics during BTN but trust me IT WAS A DAMN GOOD EXPERIENCE! LOL
I really respect my facilitator, my group, our teamwork, Syahir's change into a great leader, our experience and undoubtedly my phobia of leeches. HAHAHAHAHA
U might not believe it but I will freeze to death if I see any of those creepy crawler latched onto me.
Anyway, somehow it's funny when fate stepped in. Literally I was granted lotsa my wish there. And I was granted so much that I thought it would be too good to be true. But in the end I paid the price. I was speechless when the time came. And even though I need to end this years of infatuation, I just cant. Well, she's been the person I know all these years and guess I'm comfortable with it. Well, who knows. But I just need to end it. Adoi!
Anyway, after BTN the boys and me went to the long-planned Malacca trip.
Well, it might be our last trip together so what the heck. I was damn tired coz of that trip as I was drivin for the whole trip and I bet Guna was too!
We stayed in A'Famosa resort and guess wut, in the villa we stayed, there's a fish pond!
Lol
I guess it would be neat to have one in my future home for Shoel to play with. LOL
And while driving around Malacca, we saw something funny.... But I don't mean to be offensive but heck! IDK!!!
Well, it's gonna be weird parting ways with the people that I've grown close to since June 2003. And most of us will be paving a new way in life soon so I guess despite all the headaches obtained so far, I wanted to say I will miss Level 7 and it will be in my heart forever. And that includes Manchi, Pochi, Shoel, Wunan, Shadow, Junior and Stella. Well, of course lets not forget the topic of the Phantom of the Auditorium. ROFL!!!! He will always be the topic of our discussions in Mamaks or other restaurants when we meet up again someday.
Till then, Ja~
p/s: Don't you think that this entry is somehow a bit random?
Blood Exia and 1/60 Exia Gundam
Well, been to Btn last week and just got back last Monday. However, I went to Melaka and got back last Friday and then now I'm in Seremban. Thus the delay of the pics of the all new Blood Exia and Exia Gundam 1/60.
As you can see here, I put together both Exias at the same time. This is to save time waiting for the paint to dry.
But finally Blood Exia finished first. Thus I put a pause on building the other Exia and concentrated on the armaments of Blood Exia.
I planned for the GN sword to have a scratch mark, thus using lotsa paste note wrapping it and took it off to cut the scratch shape and then spray the paint.
And this is the result of it.
Well, here you go, the complete Blood Exia's equipment.
And Blood Exia's finished!
Here's the first pose of Blood Exia!
And the story goes as Blood Exia was too eager to help finish his big brother.
And the 1/60 Exia magically finished itself up!
Lol!
So, what do you think? Should I go for a higher level of plastic modelling? Zaini said that I had surpassed him by using paints to modify the colour but I think this is just a trial for me. Maybe next year I could enter some tournaments. In the mean time, gotta save some money and plan on which Gundam to buy and modify. Maybe I might use some old parts to create a new Gundam.
As you can see here, I put together both Exias at the same time. This is to save time waiting for the paint to dry.
But finally Blood Exia finished first. Thus I put a pause on building the other Exia and concentrated on the armaments of Blood Exia.
I planned for the GN sword to have a scratch mark, thus using lotsa paste note wrapping it and took it off to cut the scratch shape and then spray the paint.
And this is the result of it.
Well, here you go, the complete Blood Exia's equipment.
And Blood Exia's finished!
Here's the first pose of Blood Exia!
And the story goes as Blood Exia was too eager to help finish his big brother.
And the 1/60 Exia magically finished itself up!
Lol!
So, what do you think? Should I go for a higher level of plastic modelling? Zaini said that I had surpassed him by using paints to modify the colour but I think this is just a trial for me. Maybe next year I could enter some tournaments. In the mean time, gotta save some money and plan on which Gundam to buy and modify. Maybe I might use some old parts to create a new Gundam.
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